“let’s read Goldbug”

this is what Grayson says almost every night before bed. Our bedtime routine is getting PJ’s on, brush teeth and read a story. He pretty much always chooses this book called Car, Trucks and Things that Go (Goldbug as he calls it). It’s a really cute book that has tons of cars, bikes, tanks, airplanes—real and pretend. He’s obsessed with it and on each page there’s this tiny little yellow bug named Goldbug. You have to search for him on each page- kinda Where’s Waldoish. Our bedtime routine is one of my favorite- he snuggles up next to me on our comfy red chair in the playroom and we read. If he has a question and wants to interrupt me he says “excuse me mama”, it’s the cutest thing in the world. 

These have been the best 4 years of my life. I look at my life now and know that these are the best days I’ll ever live. Raising Grayson is the reason I’m here and I know being a mother is as good as it gets. I know when he’s off to college and becoming his own man I’ll look back on these days and remember how special they were. The way he snuggles close and tells me he loves me, the way he holds my hand or helps me find my slippers. My bond with him is everything and it’s a feeling I never knew existed until I had him. 

I haven’t written much in my blog but my goal is to start writing at the end of every week. This week was great- school was canceled Monday because of the snow-ugh I almost cried when I saw the snow coming down, we’ve gotten so much this year. So Grayson helped me shovel the driveway, then we took his sled out and I pulled him around the neighborhood. He had soccer this week and almost scored a goal, but his best friend Joanna blocked it. He swam really well this week- he does 4 laps of freestyle with no stopping and his flip turns looked amazing. I’m so proud of him each time I see him swim- it’s shocking to see a 4 year old swim that well. He’s working on his breast stroke and butterfly and that’s coming along. His favorite part of swim is getting to do toys at the end. His teacher throws in like 7 sinking toys and he loves diving after them. Grayson got sick on Thursday night- sounds like it’s going around school and a kid threw up Wed in class so I had a feeling Grayson would get it. 

I just hope Grayson will read my blog later in life and feel the love that I have for him. Right now my life is all for Grayson, my days are focused on him and making him happy while trying to teach him right from wrong and why it’s important to be a caring person and empathetic while also not trusting strangers…it’s a hard thing to teach a 4 year old. He’s starting to do so many things on his own and really becoming his own person. He’s very funny and loves making people laugh- so much like his daddy in that way. That’s one of the things I love SO much about my husband. Grayson is very caring and sometimes if he accidentally headbutts me in the middle of the night (yes sometimes he comes into our bed) he says “sorrry mama”. He has such a good heart and I could not love him anymore than I do. To the moon and back.